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FEELING EXTREMELY ARTISICALLY FRUSTRATED.
I need to create. Paint. Photograph. MAKE SOMETHING.
What the hell is wrong with me. I’m working too much, I’m exhausted.
Not enough “time” for anything, much less myself.
I need to get myself out of the vicious cycle. I just don’t know where to start.
Here’s my YouTube flow this morning.
Nathan Barnatt’s new videos…
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AKtL4bjsmDE&feature=share&list=UU_fGtUvYTzYWXVQUwGXleDg
Naughty Santa video by him…
April, “video game booth girl” which lead me to…
April Efff’s Channel….
http://www.youtube.com/user/AprilEfff
Which lead to me watching her RATS IN MY ROOM! video.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s3ZfNFsX_gA&list=UU42tt1aKvz8UV8Wh3np4ABA
In which she mentions Modest Mouse, so then of course I want to listen to Modest Mouse…
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CTAud5O7Qqk
And now I am content. A good song coming out of watching Nathan Barnatt’s videos. If you have never seen his channel, I suggest the video “Hunkin’”.
;)
Lvl 6 on Guild Wars 2.
This game is incredible.
And SO much cheaper than WoW.
New addiction? Check.
And I just sent my boo 4 sticks of butter…just because. Hahahaha.
I got a Polaroid JoyCam at the donation store today for $2.00.
With film in it.
Geeking out.
Well, I just conquered my biggest fear.
The thing that has been haunting me for the last 5 years of my life.
And I just did it.
Nbd.
Frustrraaaatiiiiooooonnnnn.
I really wish punching someone was socially acceptable.
I wish both sides of my family were a little more functional.
Everyone has such a backwards mind.
UGH.
Oh, and those who are with me on the “science” side of religion.
People get so close minded whenever I offer my beliefs.
No, I don’t believe in god.
Supernatural things…not so sure.
But I am very much a “spiritual” person. Souls are a very real and true thing to me. It has to be the reason we have personalities, wishes, hopes, dreams, motivations. I know that our ability to reason sets us apart from other animals, and our ability to change, change, and change again at our own free will.
My honest views are that we are in control of our own destinies. We as human beings are responsible for our lives and our choices. How we choose to react and make decisions in our own lives is how we shape our own lives.
Nothing is preset or predetermined, in my humble opinion. I am a pretty open-minded person, and I respect religion, but honestly I feel like “gods” or “God” are delusions.
I mean….galaxies, the universe, infinite outer space. That is all.
